Okay, so I was wrong..COMPLETLY wrong..

I ended up talking to that guy i was telling you about.. and do you remember how i said that there was something that he couldnt tell me, but i wasn't sure if it was related to this..well, it wasn't related to that at all it turns out. And we ended up getting A LOT closer than we were before. I don't think I've EVER been this closer to anyone in my entire life. So, this is really good. And I think I can move on now, because I know how much i mean to him and I know how much he means to me, and I don't want anything to come between us. So, there's no chance there. And, in a way, I guess I'm glad. Well, not really seeings how much I like him and all, but I mean, I understand now and have a motivation to move on now. Which is good. But anyways, he's my best friend in the whole world, nothing will change that. And I promised him nothing would. So, for all of you who don't want us to be friends, TOO BAD! Nothing you do can change that. SERIOUSLY! IT CAN'T! SO BACK OFF!! But for those of you who want us to be friends, right on! That's what I'm talking about! More power to you! Lol..But anyways, I guess I'm going to sign off now..I have a lot to think about. So, talk to you guys later. Bye!

Man, I really screwed up this time..

I got really ticked just thinking about how life is for me right now. As you may not know, I'm working to try to get over this guy that I pretty much fell in love with. Well, here's the problem with that, he's my best friend. Yeah, big problem. But he knows how I feel and he knows that I'm trying to move on. We already had that discussion.
But last night, I got so frustrated with all the crap that's been going on, that I wrote a bulletin on myspace and asked one of my friends to have him read it. Well, I didn't think that he would say anything about it. I just thought he'd call me stupid for feeling the way I did, seeings how I explained how i pretty much fell in love and how hard it is to watch him date other people.
But he did say something. I had gone for a walk and when I came back, there was a message waiting for me on yahoo. It said: If you knew the reason I couldn't date you, you would understand. But I don't know the reason, so therefore, I don't understand. I just wish he would talk to me. I asked him if this had anything to do wit the thing that he couldnt tell us, but all I got out of him there was 'not really'. I'm so confused about this whole mess. i don't know what to do anymore. If you guys have any advice for me, please let it be known. I really need some right now..no joke. Well, enjoy the last few days of winter break. See-you guys later.