Thursday, August 7, 2008
Why?
Why do bad things always happen to me? I'm serious. The only good things that have happened in my life are my family and friends. Of course, guys don't fall into that category right now. Seeings how I just got dumped last night. Sheesh..What's up with men now-a-days? They don't know a good thing until it bites them on the butt, then leaves them waiting in the dust. I'm serious. Have you ever noticed that? Guys drive me insane. Especially, ones that just turned thirteen, hint hint my ex just turned thirteen. And yes, I know that seems bad, but I thought he was a good guy and he was nice to me and everything. He made me believe that he liked me for who I was and not for the fact that I can drive real soon, the fact that I'm a woman, and the fact that in his head, if he asked me for something or asked me to do something, I'd most likely do it. He pretty much had me wrapped..ERGH! Guys just drive me insane...Isn't it ironic how the good guys, the ones that are basically the 'perfect man', turn out to be gay or already taken? It's like they're all gone and there's none left. Well, I know this one guy, well these two guys, who I really like, one more than the other. The funny thing is is that I'm actually in love with this guy. I've known him for two years in a few days. We've actually dated once, but it didn't reall work out too well. The good part is that we're still friends. Matter of fact, we're best friends. I just wish he realized how much I love him. Or even that I LIKE him. I don't even think he likes me back. And if he does, then he's doing a good job at hiding it. Well, the only thing I have to lean on is knowing that God will help me when I need it and he'll make things brighter for me in the future if that's what he has planned for me. I just hope that he can reach down his hand real soon and help me up because right now, I'm fallen. And I don't think I can get up on my own. Atleast, not anytime soon. Well, I'm going to go write more on my story. I'll post the first chapter when I'm done with it. I'll keep you posted.
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God is the only guy you can count on. And (good news!) he isn't taken.
don't count on countless uys to give you 'the next best thing'. They'll always let you down.
okay..who is this? and im not counting on anyone but god.
must you know?
and it certainly doesn't sound like you're counting completely on God. you say that you're going to lean on God 'when you need it'. But what about when you really don't need it? shouldn't you still be leaning on Him, even though you really 'don't need it? He is calling you to Him with thee hard times. He wants to know you SO badly, but if you ony lean on him when you need it--and not also in the good/most joyful times in you life, He will not TRULY know you.
so, if I seem to preachy, let me know. I'm only here to help. =) hope things are getting better for you.
God Bless.
yeah, nice speech. you dont hav to preach to me bout things i already no. seriously. and no, things havent gotten better for me.
sorry about the preachy part. I tend to get on a streak and keep going. my bad.
and I figured that it might help a bit if you hear what you alreayd know from someone else. it hits you harder if it's coming from a different person (even you if don't know me).
if I'm bothering you by trying to help, tell me and I'll leave you alone. I don't want to add to any of the trouble . . .
no..wat you did was you opened my eyes alittle more. thank you. i might need it real soon by the way things are looking. why dont you wanna say who you are?
to keep you guessing.
and I'm glad I could help a little, for all it's worth.
you say that you'll need it really soon? if you don't mind my asking, why might you need it?
so, i do know you?
I never said that. I could be your guardian angel for all you know.
well, if you are my gardian angel, youre doing a good job. keep up the good work..lol...
so how have things been going? I hope they're better, because from what the post said, everything was kind of falling apart.
any cool conversations with God lately?
well..things have been going better but also going worse...it's a long story..ugh..and yeah, i have had some good convos lately..
hmm, sounds like a tough situation, there. sorry. hope things keep getting better.
and I've got a world of time to listen, if you want me to.
and thats great! I cna't tell you how many times I've been brought back to life by a God moment.
okay...
yeah, alright. brush me off as an idiot, I see how it is. -_-
go ahead and think I'm a ten year old, I don't care.
laugh all you like about my God moments. they're the same as conversations. I've been through SO much more than you claim to be going through right now.
I was only trying to help, you know.
wat the hecks ur problem, kallie? seriously. i know its you. and you have no idea how much ive had to go through. no idea watsoever. the one people who even hav an idea are kayla, my sister, and charlie. and i didnt treat you like a ten year old. i dont even know where you got that from. all i sed was okay. nohing else. how in the world could you get anything like that from one word?
it was the tone you used Brandi. you thought I was a total lunatic.
and I knew you knew it was me anyway. I was only trying to get to you some other way so that you'd listen to me because everything else just seemed to make it worse! if you don't want to be friends, fine. don't bother giving me the silent treatment anymore. it deosn't bother me anyway. just get your act together. I'm through feeling sorry for you, okay? I wanted to help, but if you want to blow up in my face, go ahead.
I'm sorry for giving you the cold truth, but there you go.
and I know you've been through a lot, but God does these things for a reason! you said at the beginning of your blog that all the bad stuff hapens to you? well it doesn't. bad things happen to EVERYONE.
please just stop acting like the world is against you. we're rooting for you, really. I wish you'd see that! but if you don't want to talk to me, thats okay too.
sorry for blowing up on you. thats what I really think about all this crap thats going on.
i wasnt using any tone. and i dont think youre a lunatic. and im sorry about making you think i was giving you the silent treatment. i just wasnt talking because i thought you were still mad at me and didnt wanna talk to me. i hope were cool. i guess ill see you tomorrow at school.
yeah, at tennis, I guess.
sorry for everything. I'm not quite sure if I'm on speaking terms quite yet . . . I just don't know about anything right now . . .
thats fine, so i take it i just shouldnt really try..? so nothing else happens..lol. have fun on da first day?
oh, yeah. sort of. lots of homework already and I got confused in Driver's Ed. ugh
and I hurt my foot at tennis practice today . . .
thats not good. are you okay?
yeah, ive been getting lost in drivers ed too.. im trying to do the 80 question thing..ugh
yeah, I'm fine now. my mom said that she thinks it was just a sprained tendon in my foot . . . so, yeah. =)
hows driver's ed going now? pass the test?
well...lol. i missed 7 questions and 5 signs..one of the signs was right though. it was the slow moving vehicle one..oh well, makes no difference anyway. i still gotta retake it..but a lot of drama went down this morning between the hours of 230 and bout 5...lol
wow, thats pretty early, I'd say . . . what happened?
well, my brothers cousion got his arm cut open badly, the neighbor tried makin our tires go flat by lettin the air out of them, the cops were here 3 times between 330 and 830, and the neighbor who tried letting the air out of my moms tired through a rock through our back screen door window and shattered it..lol
why did they do that? let the air out of your tires, I mean.
they did it because they thought it was my bros cousins van and not my moms i think. or maybe he was just drunk. i have no idea., but i do know my brother is coming home tonight and staying until monday. thisll be a fun weekend..ugh..and plus his girlfriend will be living here too. i like her, but enough is enough..ergh!
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